There was a time, a few years ago, when after a lengthy and dizzying honeymoon period with astrology, I finally began to think and question, and to ask why, where and how does this cosmic craft of ours work, and if it does indeed work, what is it that works? Questioning is a dangerous pastime for an astrologer, for once we become converted and begin practising this most princely, or is it queenly of stellar sciences, there is generally no turning back. We are hooked: where once our lives were chaotic and meaningless, now we have substituted order, meaning and numinosity. Like many of my fellow colleagues, I initially embraced astrology with a fervour not unlike that of a born-again religious convert who first meets with his/her God/dess.
Astrology's Uranian quality turned on a light, illuminating once mysterious corners of my life and being. It explained and named the previously un-nameable. It was nothing short of an aha experience - so that's why I'm like that I mused - I'm not a dialectical nightmare after all, as one former partner had endlessly teased - I'm a very normal and stereotypical Libran! What a relief it was.
[She goes on to explain her own areas of later doubt.]
......In the face of such gargantuan claims to be able to answer life's big and little questions, to be able to tell us the why, who, what, where and even when of life, many of us can forget the need to question, to inquire, to investigate, to think for ourselves, to examine and ultimately to doubt. The 'd' word is clearly a dirty word for many astrologers. In the presence of doubt we can find ourselves in a highly uncertain and formless place, bereft of answers, shorn of predictability, and of course we all know that astrologers need answers and thrive on certainty. After all, predictability is our greatest claim to fame. Without that, perhaps we may cease to exist!
But what this questionless state of affairs really engenders is little more than a fundamentalist belief system with all the hallmarks of a somewhat rabid religion. Those few who do dare to ask the difficult questions are more often than not marginalized as heretics to the true cause of astrology, for it seems apparent that astrologers are threatened by too many questions. Yet it is my belief that the discipline and practice of astrology could only benefit from some serious questioning, investigation and ultimately deconstruction. It is important to note that deconstruction is a dismantling process: it is not a destruction as many believe, and its purpose is to find the source of meaning which lies at the core of any system or set of beliefs.
#1 I don't believe that when a natal chart seems not to match its owner, using the most basic methods of delineation, the astrologer should use a "deeper" set of techniques, or add more ingredients, to make it fit. If a chart doesn't fit, the reason is most likely to be attributable to the native's heredity, location, environment, health, circumstances, etc. Transits and cycles, especially those of Saturn, will be observable in the life, in accordance with the natal chart, even when personality, as traditionally described, does not clearly manifest in an individual. I see astrology as a fragile natural manifestation originated in the moment of birth. The fragile, natural effect is going to be modified in any number of ways. It's amazing that the effect remains discernible at all in so many cases.
#2 The idea of hard and fast divisions in an astrological chart bothers me. There is no universally accepted "correct" house system or even correct zodiac. Signs and houses ought to be open to some blending effect. "There are no walls in space". I believe a natal chart is capable of displaying a view of the native, not exact, but through swirling mists - hints, outlines and suggestions only. Likewise for astrological predictions - hints only, and plenty of swirling mists there too!
#3 Progressions, secondary, primary or any other -ary do not impress me much. Likewise for solar arcs, midpoints, solar return charts, and lunar return charts. My instincts go against these astrological "tools". They reduce astrology to some kind of board game. The fact that they originate from the past isn't enough to change my mind.
#4 I'm wary of any theory related to karma, soul purpose, reincarnation.
#5 I'm skeptical of the idea that names from mythology, allocated to newly discovered/designated celestial bodies, should be taken as a guide to a celestial body's meaning. It makes no sense - even less sense when astrologers jump on the idea the day after announcements are made by astronomers, the very people who look on astrology as total bullshit!
The way I see it is due to the way I am "wired". I could be wrong, but well... so could you!
Postscript
This morning's very sad news of the death of Alan Rickman caused me to search for my own post featuring him, and his natal chart. For anyone interested, it's at:
http://twilightstarsong.blogspot.com/2009/08/alan-rickman.html
